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Dreamer's Journal


a collection of poems and prose ...

6h includes entries from
Evid, Isabel, Danielle, Ping, Dreamgirl702, and QTgirl

Poetry from Danielle

The Dance



Sitting alone in a smoky cafe. 
The words of the singer strike true.
Sing it sister.
All alone.
No one to dance with.
Can only watch.
Sin City.
The city of broken dreams, and Elvis chapels.
If they would all just burn to the ground; I could move on, and I'm comforted 
by that lie. 
A hand takes mine, I look in his eyes. (Yeah the get me everytime!)
We start to dance our breath mingling sweet.
So right together, but just torn apart.
Just the dance.
The world falls away. 
Just us and the sounds of Margarita Salt.
Just the dance, if it could last forever I would not complain.
He speaks of a vision, a vision that I knew once to be real.
I'm tired of lying.
I need to show him what I've been hiding.
I open my mouth and the music stops.
The bubble we had pops and my chance has been lost.
Just the dance.
Viva Las Vegas baby, a city of chance.

by Danielle

Poetry from Evid

It's Still You

by Tanya Haldane

You won't leave me
I try. Oh God how I try...
to ignore you, to forget you, even to hate you.
I move on
I meet others
But it's still you
Still you in my heart
Still you in my soul
Still you who drives me crazy every day...
with you their is no end.
It's your smile I dream of
It's your embrace I long for
and it's your heart I crave.
I know that it's useless,
pointless, futile
but it's still you I hope for
and when I see you...
oh God...there aren't even words enough
to convey my joy,
to convey my pain
The only words that come to mind
are words that I can't speak...
It's still you...It's still you...


It has been too long apart,
Though I knew it from the start,
The not knowing would be the hardest part.
To sit and wonder and have to wait,
Praying that it is not too late.

We both knew this is what I had to do,
Something that we must get through.
How I wish it would be over fast,
And that I would know our love will last.
And not become part of our past.

To hold you again and kiss your sweet face.
Oh my God my heart will race.
That is what always happens when Iím with you.
To settle for anything less will never do.

I ache to hear your voice, come to say,
"I've come home."
God I pray, you are here to stay.
I missed you so much, I need you to know.
If you say that you are still mine,
just look into my soul, for this time, you will know,
I am never letting go.


by Evid

I Lied

I hurt the one I love today
I set out and I lied
I told him things I just don't mean
And kept the truth inside

Today I used this good man's love
To rip apart his heart
I used the weakness he showed with me
To lie and tear him apart

I told him I can't die for us
And I want a normal life
I even set him up with her,
She who calls herself his wife
I can't tell him why I lied
And that he asked me to
I did it because I love him
What else could I do?

Today I tried to stop the end
Of the earth and humanity
But all that's on my mind tonight
Is what my love must think of me

Tomorrow when the sun rises
I will have to carry on
I'll have to face myself
And all that I have done

I lie awake waiting now
For this new day to begin
Wondering: When He disappeared,
Why couldn't I go with him

Ping

Night Thoughts

I hurt the one I love today
I set out and I lied
I told him things I just don't mean
And kept the truth inside

Today I used this good man's love
To rip apart his heart
I used the weakness he showed with me
To lie and tear him apart

I told him I can't die for us
And I want a normal life
I even set him up with her,
She who calls herself his wife

I can't tell him why I lied
And that he asked me to
I did it because I love him
What else could I do?

Today I tried to stop the end
Of the earth and humanity
But all that's on my mind tonight
Is what my love must think of me

Tomorrow when the sun rises
I will have to carry on
I'll have to face myself
And all that I have done

I lie awake waiting now
For this new day to begin
Wondering: When He disappeared,
Why couldn't I go with him?

Ping

Poetry from Ping

Looking Back

Looking back on where I've been
and the words that I never did say
I wish that for just one day
you could feel my heart beat for you.

Looking back on where I've been
and all those could-haves that fled
I wish you had a window to my head
you could see how much I miss it now.

Looking back on where I've been
and the chances that I never saw
I wish this pain weren't quite so raw
I could remember the good instead.

Looking back on where I've been
and the days I spent with you
I wish there was something I could do
so we could be together today.

Looking back on where I've been
I wish that I didn't have to
to hear you say "I love you"
I wish, but that doesn't make it true.

By Ping

I'll Be

If the stars should crash down
upon this head of mine tonight
know that come the morning light
I'll be there beside you.

No matter where you go
I'll always be right there
when noone else seems to care
you'll always have my heart.

I love you.
I'll travel any distance
Cross any sea
No matter where you go
There I'll be.

Love is There

There are days when the sun isn't there
There are nights when the stars don't shine
Some days the rain just keeps coming down
But Love, pure and true, Love is There.

Once a boy, he loved this girl
He knew she was the point of his life
He loved her steady constant and true
He knew those days with no sun, there was a girl.

Once a girl, she loved this boy
She loved him more than anything in this world
She counted on him for life love and strength
She knew those nights with no stars, there was a boy.

Once these two, they loved each other
They would give their lives for this love
They were one another's air heart and soul
They knew on those rainy days, they had each other.

Once these two, they loved each other
And even though they were very far apart
Their love was steady strong and loyal
In their hearts, they knew they had each other.

There are days when the sun isn't there
There are nights when the stars don't shine
Some days the rain just keeps coming down
But Love, pure and true, Love is There.

------------------ But love, pure and true, love is there.

It . . .

It pierces your heart
It shatters your soul
It changes your every thought
It invades your mind
You fall to your knees
You look to the heavens and cry.

It lifts you up
It gives you wings
It changes your very life
It defines who you are
You stand up tall
You look to the heavens and smile.

It is the loss of youthful innocence
But it is the innocence of itself.

It is what life is all about
This brutally tender love.

H3>This Pain how did I come to feel this way
with all of this confusion and this pain
I hate what's happened to a love so pure
tell me why we can't go back to before

I can still feel you deep in my heart
and you're still there beside me
but I feel so alone when I lie in the dark
and I'm afraid to close my eyes

this is the secret I have to keep
and the emptiness makes me weak
and I feel like I'm lost
inside a me that isn't me

I can't let go and I can't hold on
and I feel like maybe I might be strong
but whenever I try to reach out to you
I see that night you didn't spend alone

and you're back in my arms now
but I can't forget you were in hers
I'm happy we're here but you broke my heart
I want to go back to before

Ping

In His Eyes

In his eyes the future was clear
he could conquer the world with her here
In his eyes she was everything
the stars in the sky the reason to try
In his eyes

In his eyes she could do no wrong
But then in his eyes she did

In his eyes she betrayed him
turned her back broke his heart
In his eyes she's gone
lost that glow a fallen star
In his eyes

What he can't see
She did it for love.

Calm

The heavens are calm tonight
funny, I never saw that before
but it's hard to see peace around you
when you're entire heart's in an uproar.

And it looks like the moon is smiling
funny, last night I could've swore
that very same moon was crying
I guess what you see reflects your soul.

I feel I'm at home tonight
funny, last night I slept in this same bed
but I guess you can't ever really be home
when not at peace within your own head.

The heavens are calm tonight
funny, I never saw that before
But last night we were so far apart
And now I see that love is still in your heart.

Lost

I never meant to hurt you
I love you too much for that
I never meant to cause those tears
I would rather hurt myself that bad
I never meant to leave you
I didn't know it'd be so dark
I forgot it's you who lights my way
I can't find myself without your love
I never meant to lose you
I can't live in this world alone
I never thought I'd go so astray
I'll have to follow your voice home

Today

I'm not as much a Dreamer today
The evil one's gone, but her legacy stays
We thought it was a mind thing
She was controlling our King
It couldn't be real, Liz is the One
But it was and now Tess has his son
He and Liz had a love pure and true
Today the purity is gone, the innocence too
Tainted by Tess, the sex, and the heir
No matter what now, that will always be there
He was with another, one not his Liz
It was real and someone else has his kid
How can we carry on Dreaming like we did
Knowing of that night, knowing what he did
How could his first time Not be with Liz?

I'm not as much a Dreamer today
The love is tainted, why should I stay?

Home

We've come so very far
from where we were.
We're so far away
from where I need to be.
But still I reach across the night
And I can feel you next to me
It's a long way back, love,
But we're on the right road now
I can feel inside my soul
In just a little while we'll be home
I love you so much, dear,
But after all this time I'm weak
And sometimes I will fall
But now you're there to catch me.
And it's just a little while now
We're almost home.
The Best You walked away, crying, but still you left
And I let you go
Now I'm drowning in the aftermath
Dying for your love
I never found the words to tell you
You'll always be in my heart
You were the best I'd ever known
I feel you always will be
The best for cutting right through to me
The best for lifting me, giving me wings
The best for loving me for me
The best reason I've found to be
I never found the words to say
And I'm afraid I never will
You're more than just a man
You're the best man for me
But these are just words
Inadequate at best
What I feel for you can't be described
And, besides that, you've left.
Ping We're just two people, he and I
Just two people yet we're more
We're from such different places
Connected with a bond of souls
That's simply out of this world
We're just two people
Who've found a way to fly
Two people so in love
We've built castles in the sky
We've circled the sun and come back around
We're in each other's souls
We're what I've never known before
So I guess we're just two people
Who've never been anything of the sort.

The Time

The time is coming baby
for our love to raise it's head,
for us to work past some of this,
for the doubt to be put to bed.

The heavens above are crying
overjoyed to see us here.
The moon and stars are smiling,
the sun is full of cheer.

Both our hearts our singing,
as we feel the time crawl in,
the time is coming baby
I knew our love would win.

Lay Your Hand Over Mine

Look into my eyes
See yourself reflected there
How our souls are the same
How to me you're everything.

Lay your hand over mine
Feel me tremble at your touch
Feel in my pulse
How I love you so much.

Look into my eyes
How can you not see?
What lying to you
Is doing inside of me?

Lay your hand over mine
Tell me it's alright
You don't really believe
What your eyes saw that night.

Look into my eyes
Tell me our love hasn't died
At your touch I will break down
And confess to you my lies.

Just lay your hand over mine.

by Ping

And So He Waited

he saw and he loved her
from the very first day
but he believed he couldn't have her
and so he waited.

he saved her and he felt her
he felt her love for him
but he believed he shouldn't have her
and so he waited. > he kissed her and he had her
together they took the fall
and he believed they'd spend their lives together
and so he waited.

he had her and he lost her
she saw his fate and walked away
but he knew they'd be together
and so he waited.

he saw her and she was with another
he didn't believe and she didn't say
but he knows it to be a lie she can't always keep
and so he waits.

Ping

Poetry from Dreamgirl702

My World Still Ended

You came to me one night
Begging for my help
I had to do what was right
I knew I had to play along

The things you asked of me
Took the breath from my lungs
They made my heart break
And I though that soon I would awake

I never did wake up from that dream
I still live it to this day
Nothing is as quite as seems
I learned that the hard way

I know it wasnít a dream
It was really you who came to me
I have to face that reality that
It was you who came to me

Max Evans traveled back through time
He needed me to help
Said he needed to make sure the world didnít die
He came for my assistance and what he got was just that

He left me to deal on my own
He left me standing here alone
He never took it into consideration
And now heíll never know

My world still ended

by*Dreamgirl702*

I Will Be Here

Iíll be standing here
Until the day I die
Iíll be waiting right here
Until you come by

Your heart is cold to me now
It believed what your eyes claimed
But Iíll be right here Ďtill you realize
Itís all still the same
My love, I want you to know
That when your heart leads you to me
I will still be waiting here
Waiting for you to be able to see

That the love that once burned so brightly in my eyes
Has been concealed brilliantly
But once the stars pass me by
Youíll be back here with me

I live for that moment of peace
To hold you in my arms
When you come back to me
Iíll keep you safe and warm

When that day comes, my darling
When the time is drawing near
And when you come back for me
I will be right here

by Dreamgirl702

Donít Be Surprised

If you look at me that way
Donít be surprised when I crumble
When your hand brushes mine
Donít be surprised when I stumble

If you put your arms around me
Donít be surprised when I care for you
If you save me once more
Donít be surprised when I fall in love with you

If you say that Iím the one
Donít be surprised when a tear slips free
When you tell me that you love only me
Donít be surprised when itís only you I see

When you tell me not to leave
Donít be surprised when I turn away from you again
When you say donít go, I love you
Donít be surprised if collapse down at your feet again

When you ask me to give you up
Donít be surprised when I oblige you
If you tell me that itís too late
Donít be surprised when I agree itís true

When I see you with her
Donít be surprised when I lose it
When your love is for her
Donít be surprised when Iím destroyed by it

by Dreamgirl702

Poetry from QTgirl

Here I am again back where I started,
Meeting with love and then I parted.
I touched the light,
That pushed me to fight.
Against heartbreak and tears,
And through the burden of fears.
Repeating the cycle that I know only too well,
Creating the frame of my very own hell.
Trudging toward my unfortunate fate,
Into a sad and undignified state.
Stopping to look at beautiful things,
Waiting for the gifts that the new seasons bring.
Lasting forever never to end,
Leaving my wounds for time to mend.
Afar I see the horison of gold,
I might at last touch the legend foretold.
Existing forever 'til the gold becomes rusted,
Believing in the faith that I always trusted.

By Qtgirl

Poetry from Isabel

Written with a pen
Sealed with a kiss
If you're there Liz,
Please answer this:
Do you love me or do you not?
You told me once but I forgot.
So tell me now and tell me true,
So I can say I'm here for you.
Of all the friends I've ever met,
You're the one I won't forget, And if I die before you do,
I'll go to heaven,
And wait for you.
~Max~



I'm here to celebrate, as we all know what must happen, what will happen. Liz and Max shall not stay parted because of this Destiny schmestiny thing. They will always be together in their hearts and in our dreams for all eternity.

Roswells Romeo & Juliet - Our Max Evans & Liz Parker.

Different origins bounded by hope, lust and love. The original Romeo & Juliet may have ended in tragedy but Max&Liz have passed that phase and are heading for a new horizon, together, that is their final destiny.

Through all the differences they share they have at least this one similarity, They Believe In Their Love.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
But I've got it all here in my heart,
I want you to know I know the truth, cuz I know you,
I would be nothing without you.

~Wind Beneath My Wings~ (Beaches)
~Representing Max's heartache after EOTW~

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What I believe from Liz~ I believe:

that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I believe:

that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them
and less to do with how many
birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe:

that it isn't always enough to be
forgiven by others. Sometimes you
have to learn to forgive
yourself.

I believe:

that no matter how bad your heart is
broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe:

that our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are
but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe:

that the people you care about most in
life are taken from you too soon.
I believe we will find a wayÖ

BYE ALL! I LOVE YOU ALL! KEEP ON DREAMINGÖ

From Isabel

Poetry from Sebi

Moving on

The time has come to move on
I must give up this fight
Before I lose my self in it's fading light

You have been the best part of my soul
The dream I will forever hold
Deep within the dark of the setting sun
You will be my strength to win the coming fight
My sight when I am blinded by the light > Over the years you have been my anchor throw the raging storm
You have given me hope for a brighter day
When I was drowning in the flood of my own despair
You have become my definition of humanity
When I thought I was anything but
Showing me how to live and love
Out side of the confides of my own prison

I can not regret the way you felt against my skin
The touch of your cherry lips on mine
Or the way came alive with in my arms
Those moments were yours and mine
To be cherished for the rest of our lives

Tonight as I walk away from the only truth I have ever known
I will conjure up the memory
Of sweet strawberry kisses
The gentle glow of your eye
As I held you to me tight throw the night
These are the things I will remember
When you're far away and dreaming
Of someone else that is not me

And although I will move on with out you
Hold another while I'm fast asleep
I need you to know
You'll still be the first one in my dreams

Please believe that I still love you
And although I may not show it
I shall believe
That you are my destiny

It was you

So much unsaid and to fare gone to say it,
I wonted to tell you that I loved you,
Swear I still adore you,
Promise to defend you,
Defy destiny and never leave you,
Scream 'I still need you',
Give my life for you,
I wanted to tell you,
That I would die for you.

All because 'it was you'.

by Sebi