in your light
in your light
I feel the possibility
of what forever could become...
perhaps it's the spark
that makes you real
perhaps it's the flame
that ignited my soul...
whatever lights your eyes
whatever it is that makes you shine
let me bask here a little longer
just until forever is done...
in your light
I'm the child seeking refuge
and I'm the woman of your dreams...
perhaps it's the knowledge
you'll love no one but me
perhaps it's visions
that haunt me in my sleep
whatever lights your eyes
whatever it is that makes you shine
let me bask here a little longer
just until forever is done...
And I Almost Cry
Looking up with tempest eyes,
He whispers sweet to me...
"I've had them with me all the time, you know,
Every second of every minute of every day
Since the very first time I saw you smile,
I've kept them with me all this time...
Treasured away like love letters in my soul.
Even when you wondered where I'd gone to,
All that time I was with you in my dreams."
And I have to sigh
Because how much more perfect
Could one man be?
And he leans in closer as he speaks�
"Oh you could say I'm seeing both of you
Everything you've ever been
And all the things you're going to become,
With everything you are right now...
I'm just spending time with all of you
Spending every waking hour saving time...
Cuz I've got every second of every minute
Of every day with you treasured in my dreams"
And I almost cry
Because how much more perfect
Could one man be?
Every Word You Say
when you look at me
I still get lost
and it feels like
I'm drowning in the ocean
and the tide
just keeps coming in
and it's the rise and fall
of a noble heart
not the moon
that draws me to your shore
and I believe
every word you say
I still get lost
because I believe
and I'm so far gone
I can't look away
not even to save myself
I'd rather be drowning
here in your arms
lost in your eyes
in the sea of our love
than anywhere else...
cuz I believe
every word you say
I've never been so sad
never quite so scared
I thought I was losing you
not because you struck out alone
but because I couldn't make you stay
and the fear grew deeper
and enveloped me
until I thought I'd drown
you were all alone
without a hand to hold
but you kept searching on
and I know it must've hurt you bad
when I couldn't make you stay
and the fear grew closer
and crept over me
until I would surely die
I reached for you
but not far enough
I thought I was losing you
because it seemed you ran away
even when I ordered you to stay
and the fear...
the fear kept gnawing
from somewhere deep
but one by one
the faithless followed you
until there was no one left but me
not because I did not believe
but because I was blinded and could not see
and the fear still came
until I followed too
only then I felt pain subside
and lastly though I came
searching for your heart
you still believed in me
not because faith had found me
but because love had never truly left
~ Max
Not Leaving...
gently
gently
just remember me
all the things I used to be
the dreams we were making
cuz they're all I am taking
because I'm not leaving
just resting here
gently clinging
to all that's dear
gently
gently
just hold on to me
to everything I made you see
through eyes of the young and brave
for you my soul I gladly gave
because I'm not leaving
just resting here
gently clinging
to all that's dear
gently
gently
just know I'm here
far away but always near
I'll stand here with you
a hand for you to hold on to
because I'm not leaving
just resting here
gently clinging
to all that's dear
Whole
peering here inside you
at everything you are
and I'm seeing all of me
hiding there in you
everything you are
is all I'll ever need to be...
you're the other half of me
I'm not just mislaid pieces
now I know where I belong
you're the other half of me
the part that makes me whole
everything you are
is all I'll ever need to be...
you're the other half of me
Like I Do
no one will hold you
until the moon
comes crashing down
like I do
and no one else
can recreate this
impossible love we found
like I do
but I'll be your angel
and I'll teach you words
and I'll give you mountains
because nobody else
knows how to heel our wounds
like I do
nobody will
hold you
until you are whole
like I do
and no one
can love you
love you more
than I do
...not like I do...
I had to make you see,
before you, there was nothing
and I feared loving
afraid to leave this safety...
but without you
I was nothing...
I've learned something, though, about
nothing...
no heart beats in vain
no life is lived to feel nothing...
and I had to make you see,
I'm feeling because of you...
living to the bone,
and it's so real
it hurts sometimes
before you, there was nothing
and I feared in leaving
that even what I had, I'd lose
because without you
I'm nothing...
but I learned something about
nothing...
my heart has never beat in vain
because now, with you, I feel everything....
and I have to make you see
you are everything...
there is no grey in love
cuz love's just black and white
there is no hesitation
and not a hint of doubt
and even when there is no logic
it all makes sense somehow...
and there isn't any darkness
cuz love is always bright
when the world is black
and confusion closes in
love is the light we harbor
between our clinging hearts
and it all makes sense somehow
cuz it's just you and me
cuz we're standing here together
in the brightness of our love
I just want to know you
like no one else knows you
I want to memorize
the way you follow
the line of the horizon
with your eyes as
you watch the sun set�
I need to study
how your strong hand
folds around my small one,
each finger resting
as though it had always
been a part of mine
I just want to know you
like no one else knows you
I have this impression
burned in my mind
of your gaze
peering without judgement
into my deepest secrets�
I have yet to learn
all the volumes of your past
to explore your thoughts
and see your memories
from the very beginning
of your recollection�
I just want to know you
like no one else knows you
I want to memorize
how your eyes sparkle
when you laugh
and be reminded
every day
for the rest of my life�
I need to feel your skin
to imbed it�s warmth
into my soul
until I can feel you
when I dream�
because I love you
like no one else has ever loved you�
in your eyes I see everything
as it should be,
not as it is right now
and I don't need to touch you
to feel when your heart beats
because I can see it...
there is strength there
that draws me to bravery
and pleads with my spirit
to be everything
it aspires to be...
your eyes reveal everything
and I can see
the way a heart can see forever
without knowing time,
I already know the words
before you speak them...
I can feel your fear
and touch your pain
there is nothing you can hide
because your eyes
speak to me...
I can see everything
and even with nothing
standing between us
but silence and a heartbeat,
I can hear you...
from your eyes to my soul
we share a lifeline
securing these moments
without arms to embrace,
and I can't see it
but I know it's there...
because I'm only strong
when you are near...
standing at the crossroad
in the middle of a heavy fog
I can't see the signs
for all the gray around me,
every now and then
a faint beam of light
reels by on it's journey
somewhere up ahead,
leaving me at this crossroad
without a way to see
I can't turn back
and I'm afraid to take a step,
closing my eyes to hide
in the coolness of the dark
I huddle here inside myself
waiting to hear your voice,
with the cold rain pelting
and the wind hanging still
I'd rather be blinded by faith
than blinded by her will,
faith will call to you
until you bring the sun
and burn away the grayness
that makes me close my eyes,
but even if it wasn't raining
and the fog had disappeared
I couldn't leave this place
until you come and choose a path for me...
It's Not Me
I'm not quite myself right now
even though a mirror
would tell a different tale
the only time I feel
is when I close my eyes
cuz then the earth stops spinning
and just lets me lie
so let me lie here
until I can stand
'til I find myself
again....
I'm someone I never thought I'd be
even though my reflection
hasn't changed at all
but I'm missing parts of me
parts I need the most
that ground me here
and lead me home
so let me lie here
until I can stand
'til I find myself
again....
and I don't wanna be
not here like this alone
I don't wanna see this man
hiding there behind my eyes
cuz it's not me behind the glass
it's not me cuz
I'm not me without you
so let me lie here
until I can stand
'til I find myself
again....
I keep writing
verses in my head
and I keep hearing
all the songs...
serenading my heart
in short sweet bars,
and I'm waiting for
the next refrain
when the words
bring you back to me.
so let the music
keep playing
and the lyrics linger
because with the
next refrain
you'll come back to me
Walking Away
I don't want to
walk away
and I can't be left
alone
you can trust me
while I'm here
but shortly I'll
be gone
and still
there's not a moment
I won't need you...
leaving you is like
severing gravity...
without you beside me
I can't even stand
I don't want to
walk away
�cuz this is all
I know
I�d trust you
to hold me here
but shortly now
I'll have to go
and still
there's not a moment
I won't need you...
walking away is like
severing gravity...
without you beside me
I can't even stand
there's not a moment
I don't need you...
YOU KNEW
I thought I loved
for reasons beyond our grasp
but you knew better than I
knowing all the time
this place was meant for us
you kept a faith without hope
I thought my future
had all the answers waiting
but you knew better than I
knowing all the while
even when confusion came
you were meant for me
I thought we found
all the reasons to be together
but you knew better than I
knowing even then
we share the same heart
and unfailing destiny
I thought I would find you
somewhere up ahead
but you knew better
knowing we never parted
that whatever comes to pass
our lives are intertwined
forever
it's like slow motion
but there's nothing
I can do
so I turn to leave
and yet I hesitate
hoping to feel you
reaching out to
hold me back...
...only you don't
you just let me go
and now I wonder
if you even knew...
and that's when
I know.
somehow, somewhere
we lost it
whatever 'it' was
I'm not sure when or
even if I saw it go
I just know I felt it
though I'm not certain
it was ever real...
the thing is...
I believed it was.
so somehow, somewhere
I'm gonna wait
without my heart
finding out
and I'm gonna find it
or wait for it
or figure out if
it ever really was
and if it wasn't....
...
...but I know it was...
Do you remember that place?
our place?
take me back there...
back to where we danced
in the darkness with only
each other and the stars...
to where there was only
the wind and clouds
to dance upon...
remember the way you sang to me?
how did it go again�
sing it to me,
about the fields that
forever bloom
even though it never rains,
where the sun only sets
when we close our eyes,
there were fields of
pale white roses there...
don't you remember how we laughed
until the brightness of the moon
out-shown the sun?
your eyes sparkled so...
what was that promise
you whispered in my ear...?
just before you declared
your undying love...
tell me again... by arabella
*and as she stands and gazes there, into the eyes that know her all too well, her heart
begs reason with her head and cries the silent prayer that night by night she whispers even as she dreams...*
with no uncertainty
my eyes have seen
fleeting glimpses
of what would one day be
in spite of all
my heart denies
and what I put at risk
I'm counting each
and every star
until you come back to me
because even
if I didn't believe
in angels
I'd believe in you
~Liz~
there's a song
that haunts me
like a lullabye
I can barely hear,
it reaches with arms
of tender tones
around the gates
that keep me far away
picking the lock
of fate
with each faint
and airy note...
but tonight
its growing stronger
and your whisper
is the melody
and the verse
is nothing more
than candle-light
flickering and soft
this music from
your heart...
and here is where I hide
in this refrain
in my lullabye
when you are near
the spotlight fades
and the curtains rise
the darkness dims
until it�s light
and the scene begins
and you are here
and I�m fallin� fast
and your hands are my anchor
and the night can�t reach me here
even though the room is spinning
and I�ve no way to stand
the spotlight fades
and the screen goes black
there are no more lines
and no more doubt
and I�m fallin� fast
into the dark
then you reach for me
and your hands are my anchor
and the night can�t reach me here
even though the room is spinning
and I�ve no way to stand
Even in another lifetime
Another place
With different rules
I would love you
Had we never met
Our paths never crossed
Though truly we had searched
I would love you
If I weren't me
And you weren't you
Our hearts would still beat the same
And I would love you
In this world
Or in another lifetime
There is no way I could ever love
Without you.
By arabella
The Dance
I could dance like this
All night
And for the rest of my life
If it meant you would
Never let me go
In your arms
Submersed in the two of us
With the music
Resounding in my head
Echoing every beat of our hearts
In your arms
With your eyes so intense
Anchoring me in this
Heaven of ours
Dancing here together alone
In your arms
With only the space
Of a single shallow breath
Suspended between us
Like stardust
I could dance like this
For the rest of my life
And my feet
Would never even touch
The ground.
arabella
Whether in dream or awake
My heart still leaps
Whenever you walk in a room
You still take my breath away
Every time you smile...
And in my dreams
I can barely breathe...
Though it doesn�t matter
Because You are my air.
Being with you was like dreaming
Wide awake�
Now I long for the night
Where you are still mine.
After I close my eyes
I step into the only life I�ve known�
You...
My only world.
Softly your voice beckons me
And you are so close, so real...
All the confusion is gone,
your dream
The whole world
Disappears
Leaving Us � Only us...
arabella
There are moments that had I known�
I would�ve held you longer...tighter...
There were times that had I known...
My lips would�ve held nothing back...
Moments I would�ve stayed longer...
Had I known you might not come back...
Times I would have looked deeper into your eyes...
If I could�ve known for what to look...
Oh that only I could�ve known...
I would not have whispered of our love
So just you and I could hear
I would�ve shouted from the rooftops
So even the gods on high
Would startle and take note
Perhaps that they would change our fate
Knowing then that this love is true...
Then all those moments would ne�er be lost
By what now I keep from you...
arabella
When did I
Know I loved you?
Light-years ago
Before time began
From long ago
Our hearts were bound
By bonds more lofty
Than those of man
My hand was carved
From the small of your palm
And my lips
Of the softness of your mouth
When did I
Know I loved you?
From the moment
My heart began to beat
by arabella
only with you
has the fluttering of my heart
shaken me so fiercely
that my knees became weak
never before
has my breath been stolen
for so long
my heart stopped beating
in on one else's arms
have I danced
as time intermingled
to bridge two hearts
my eyes never saw
shooting stars
and worlds untouched
until your lips met mine
only with you
never before
in any one else's arms.
have I ever seen love like this
only with you
arabella
last night I went out walking
with pebbles of stardust in my hand
by myself but not without you
stepping softly in red clay sand
mirages I there encountered
that listless made my heart
burdened then to find your words
that fate would make us part
so slowly back I came
as one with heavy unwilling feet
ne're to kiss your lips or feel your arms
and only in moonlit dream to meet
so night by night my soul returns
to haunt the desert sky
and daring still my heart yet beats
searching there for you and I
arabella
Solid Ground
Footsteps echo on solid ground
Make me wonder where I stand,
Am I here without you
Or just alone inside my head,
Without your light to lead me
I falter but do not fall
chorus:
When you were mine I had no dreams
And you were the only �real� to me
Tracing your skin with every breath
Your warmth defied the snow
When you were mine...you were mine...
Behind closed eyes I see you
Without words I hear your voice,
Whispers rushing through my mind
Chanting your spell into my soul,
Your beauty haunts me in silent halls
Where footsteps echo on solid ground.
chorus:
When you were mine I had no dreams
And you were the only �real� to me
Tracing your skin with every breath
Your warmth defied the snow
When you were mine...you were mine...
by arabella
Shall I believe?
Like a beaten cur
I am starved for your attention
Despite this abuse to my very soul
Each casual glance
Is a balm to my wounds inside
What I know as truth
Your actions I see
Your emotions I feel
Is the essence of incongruity
What echoes in my mind is
Shall I believe?
by DreamerVixen
If I chanced for a moment
that our hearts were misguided
the stars were not in your eyes
but blinding me from my true light
Has there been a road less traveled
that had I stepped along that way
that I would find the truth on someone else's lips?
buried in someone else's soul?
Were it not for your presence
would my world have been more rightly completed?
had I never come to know your love
would my destiny have been more truly fulfilled?
Though our very lives depend on this
this one question of our love,
if I chanced for just this one moment,
all hope would die and my world would end
The stars would fall and the heavens collapse
for there is nothing left for me
no kingdom or future or bride
if I missed that one moment with you.
arabella
I followed your lead
Into a whole new world
Where I began to live
Through your eyes
I saw for the first time
Endearing
Enduring love..
I�m trying to live without you
Only, I'm pleading with your memory...
Still caught up with your beauty
Even now that you�re gone...
You walked away and kept looking back
And I can�t see beyond your face...
Now I've given up leaving
And I'm haunted by faith
There is no love stronger than this
No destiny greater than ours
Willing with all my being
Your heart to retrace it�s steps
Back to us
arabella
You are my northern star
Shining brighter than daylight
I need no compass
As long as your heart is true
There is no such obstacle
As impossible distance
The greatest journey
Begins and ends with the heart
I will search forever
And I will be with you
arabella
Those beautiful dark and sensitive eyes
Childlike with mirth and disguising heartache
I still can feel into those shy and silent pools of light
See and hear what your lips my never say...
With arms around me that remind me still...
Sending my world back into the then
That I so terribly need and long for now,
With just your embrace...
arabella
